Been awhile since I’ve written something this long - since Adam and Daphne. An ode to my co-youth born in the late 80s and 90s, semi-lost and undermined, here’s to us.
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Last night:
Last night was the last.
With you.
With everything about us.
There was kissing.
Kissing.
Too much kissing that it was unbearable.
It wasn’t how most things end, right?
Most people would just talk and quietly walk away.
But not us. Not us.
From the beginning, we were something.
But we need that “something” to move on.
We figured that somewhere along the way, it was a journey we could not go through together.
This morning:
I woke up at 6am.
The sun just rose.
I brushed my teeth.
What is it with brushing your teeth that makes you remember things?
So I remembered.
I remembered last night.
I continued to brush my teeth.
This time with more force.
Hoping that fluoride will make the guilt, sadness, those 5 years and last night’s exchange of breath and remainings among others will make it gone.
My teeth and gums bled.
I spat it out.
Rinsed and wiped my mouth.
And then I continued my day as it’s supposed to be.
Words from inkskinned.tumblr.com
Music
This is something that I wrote for a writing workshop that I attended last May-June 2015. I didn’t submit this one though because.. just because. haha, here goes something:
by, Yours truly :)
For me, it was Century Gothic 👯
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I went home late.
When I arrived at home, I did stuff. The usual stuff. Bathe, brush your teeth, somehow eat (not in order)
I looked at myself in the mirror to look at my stray hairs.
I think I looked at myself for quite long because I noticed the lines forming around my eyes.
I noticed the blue and green veins on my cheeks.
I noticed the girl that was trying to find soul in her morning cups of coffee.
I noticed the girl that was trying to find reason on her love for trivial things.
I noticed the person that have been stuck in a moment for quite a while now.
I noticed the person that’s been pretending that most stuff are okay.
Yes, I stared at the mirror for too long.
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Alalahanin mo ako sa mga gabing tulad ng ngayon.
Ang mga gabing tulad ng ngayon na puno ng pait at sakit.
Ang mga gabing pinilit kitang intindihin.
Ang mga gabing habang-buhay ay nakaukit sa'king puso at diwa.
Ang gabing sa wakas ako ay ‘yong pinalaya at winakasan ang aking pagdurusa.
Kaya’t alalahanin mo ako sa mga gabing tulad ng ngayon.
At aalalahanin kita sa mga umagang tulad ng kahapon.
Ang umaga ng kahapon na dapat ay berde, puti at dilaw na nagmistulang abo.
Ang umaga ng kahapon na pilit na pinukaw ang aking damdamin.
Ang umaga na gumising at nagpaunawa sa akin na tama na, tama na.
Ngunit ang kahapon ay lumipas na, kaya’t paalam aking sinta.
I don’t know why, but I like the name Charlie.
how to help in Nepal
If you didn’t see the post I reblogged earlier–there was a catastrophic earthquake in Nepal. At least 1,200 people have died. Kathmandu was badly hit. It’s a city of over a million people. They’re going to need food, water, and shelter on top of medical help and search and rescue.
Food and bottled water are already running short. People are afraid to go back inside and are sleeping outside despite the cold.
If you can donate here are some reputable charities, who are already on the ground helping in the rescue efforts. And if you cannot donate, please consider reblogging.
The International Red Cross & Red Crescent in Nepal
you can also donate to your local Red Cross in your country and you can often select to apply the money “to where the need is greatest.”
When donating to charity it’s a good idea to check http://www.charitynavigator.org/ to make sure your money is being put to good use and the charity is not a scam.
And please feel free to add other ways to help.
Google has launched a person finder tool since communications are severely impaired there right now.